just i ws mistaken in every thing...............life was just a bad nightmare, and now here i woke up,,,,,,I run up that hill all alone,,friends around ? yeah sure, but....that thing that we all look for,,,love is never close or far,,,,it's just no more existing for me,,,all i want right now is to find that missing part of me
i found it once.....but it was my worst misktake i have ever done
i ran after my feelings lika a blind hearing rescue bells
i am just all over the top...
my heart just can't take this anymore
life is becoming worse and worse,,,,each second each moment...always worse,
i am just talking like a bloddy mad....it's the only true thing in my life
all people tell me that all what I hear It's just some fake things we live because and for...
but.........despite all this,,,,still looking for that missing part of me,,,it's just that twin,,,that spirit who just .....I have no idea about...it can be my last breath...and maybe i am just blinding myself
that spirit,,,,,half visible..........makes my life in a 100 pieces and smashes me every minute i go back to myslef
each second i see that people have found something they where looking for...and thanks to me....
even if it were just words to say...
it's always the same meaning
being alone,,it's not that nice,,,to be Missunderstood even by the closest people to me is Madly killing me inside...
I always feel Like that kind of a small pet in the large jungle, living lost struggling to stay alive
but my case is different...
i am a human......I do feel alone..even if I am between all the people who " love " me...
always that lonliness still exist....and it's wellknown why , i know it, but , i just know it , can't write or say it , I just know that feeling that makes me alone all the time...
sometime i don't feel this lonliness...
it's those moments when speaking to myself
I become on the high road where that part inside me has been killed...
i almost forgot to go back and talk to myself a little bit
it's just a small refuge....for sometime...to be able to continue to resist to ALL This pain and lonliness
my life goes all right i don't denie that...studies goes fine...family...friends...but the most importatnt is me in this cercle
me , the centre of all that , i'am not fine at all*
just hope to get able to resist for a longer time until that part of me shows up...Still need strengh
